Living life

Sometimes….making space for the green-eyed monster

Sometimes, seeing people succeed inspires and uplifts me;

Sometimes, it makes me feel small.

Sometimes, seeing people in love warms my heart;

Sometimes, it makes me feel so alone.

Sometimes, seeing others’ dreams awakens mine;

Sometimes, it makes me want to scream with frustration that my dreams are suffocating.

Sometimes, seeing my community flourish gives me confidence;

Sometimes, it makes me feel that I will never be enough.

Sometimes, I feel like I can do anything;

Sometimes, all I can think is “why haven’t I done this already?”.

Sometimes, seeing success makes me want to dive into life;

Sometimes, it makes me want to curl up and hide.

Sometimes, I am so angry and mean with these feelings;

Sometimes, I embrace and celebrate the positive and run away from the negative ones;

Sometimes, I can accept and love them all as part of my unique human experience.

All the times, I am.

I was scrolling through social media one night during the week, waiting for someone.  I suddenly noticed the range of emotions I was experiencing, a lot of them negative, and how loudly my shitty committee was criticising me for feeling them.  I ended up writing this straight after observing a wonderful yoga class that gave people permission to be themselves.  I’m nervous to share it as I don’t like admitting this jealously and insecurity so I asked my wonderful friend Siobhan (of ToGetHer Further) for her opinion.  Her response was so heartfelt and supportive so here it is.  I hope it resonates with you and let’s you know it’s okay to feel negative emotions; they don’t make you a bad person, they make you human.

light and love xxx

6 thoughts on “Sometimes….making space for the green-eyed monster”

  1. I really like the summary of Unique Human Experience.
    I recently had to explain jealously to my wee one (in the context of Thor and Loki mythology), he understands that it’s bad to be jealous. At a later date I’ll expand to “it’s not nesscessiarily bad, it’s nature, but you can harness it as motivation”
    Glad you shared.

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    1. Thanks Andy! I really don’t know how you explain such complex emotions to small people…I can barely understand them myself some times!


  2. Thank you! I have been feeling the sane emotions lately and sometimes i feel like i’m a horrible person but we are human and it’s normal to feel such emotions. Thanks for reminding me about that ❤


    1. Yes! Life is about experiencing the full range of emotions and feeling ‘negative’ emotions does not make you a horrible person. Feel them, learn from them and let them go xxx


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